the essence

I know I've said that I'm tired before. But, this is seriously the most tired I've been for an extended period in a LONG time. It kind of reminds me of when I was a newlywed, working part-time, and in school full-time. That was horribly exhausting (leave at 6:30 in the morning, get home at 9:30 at night) but I didn't have kids yet.

Speaking of which, Kate is sick. I thought she may just be teething, but now Ray & I have funny feeling throats and runny noses and Addison seems to be getting stopped up tonight, too. Being sick, Kate's not sleeping through the night, either. We've started putting her to sleep in the craft/guest room so that she won't wake up Addison at night (if she sleeps in our room it wakes up ray because she sucks on her hand during the night). Since Kate's sick I've slept in the guest bed the past two nights to be close when she needs me. Last night I pulled her into the bed with me so that she'd sleep better but I must've slept funny and messed up my back (even more than it already is). I woke up in excruciating pain - I took a pain killer ASAP & had Ray give me a massage, and then I had to lay down with a bucket close by because when I moved it totally felt like I was going to throw up.

Ray's been leaving every morning to tile his grandmother's house so today he took Addison with him so I could get a little more rest since I wasn't feeling well. I was able to nap for about an hour & felt quite a bit better when I woke up. Then I got a call from my parents. They were in the area & stopped by for awhile! That was a nice little treat in my day. :)

The training is going fine but there's really more to write about than I have time for right now. I do hate leaving the girls every night. I'm thankful that we don't leave until 5:00 & they're in bed around 7-8 & I'm also very glad that grandma is the one watching them, at our house no less, but I still hate leaving them. By last weekend I could tell it was affecting Addison, she was really clinging to me when we were out & if she thought Ray or I weren't at home she'd say "Daddy will be back tomorrow," over & over again, as if she were reassuring herself. I don't know how you working moms do it, now that I've experienced being away from my kids for this bit I don't know if I'd have the stamina to be gone all day everyday.

Well, I finally finished pumping, which is the only reason I'm even on the computer this late anyway. Hopefully it won't be so long before another post!