I'm officially due next week. NEXT WEEK! Ever since last week I keep getting waves of anxious excitement when I think about the baby coming so soon. I'm really excited about it & starting this new chapter in our lives. I'm also a little sad knowing it's possible that this will be our last baby. It's not a definite but it's a possibility. As uncomfortable as some things are I love the wonderment of being pregnant & I really love feeling the baby move. I seriously never cease to be amazed that there's a little person growing in there. And, even though I know that everyone got here this way, it always feels so special & amazing to me when I'm pregnant.
Last night I started having regular contractions for about two hours, 5 minutes apart or less, but only about 40 seconds until they peaked. And, I became anxious. Merely because I didn't "feel" ready yet. Having the baby at home & in my tub there are certain things that need to be done before he arrives. For example, the tub needs to be clean. And, while I have my birth supplies it wasn't in one neat spot. So, after a couple hours of contractions I got up & took care of those little things that were bothering me. I didn't really think I was in labor but it was more than normal braxton hicks contractions. Plus, whenever I've gone into real labor I've never felt nervous about it, but ready. Apparently if I don't feel I have all of my ducks in a row I don't want him to come yet; however, the truth is he'll come when he does & it won't matter what I think I have left to do, it'll be fine!
As of right now, I think after today I'll feel "ready." However, I have a trip to Busch Gardens planned with Kate for tomorrow & I've been looking forward to that! (Maybe I'll walk myself into labor there)
Two weeks ago was probably the worse "feeling" pregnant week I've had. At my prenatal appointment I had a list of things that were going on; it wasn't until the next week when they followed up that I realized I was doing much better. Things change so fast when you're pregnant! I am definitely to the point though where I'm looking forward to being able to sleep without 20 pounds on my belly and I am excited to meet this little guy!